The Journey has begun..

So I’ve started a new category in this blog. I’m moving out of Milwaukee very shortly and I felt like sharing my journey with you all..

I have a lot of big dreams. All of these dreams revolving around music and fashion. I have done and learned a lot here in Milwaukee, but my time has come to try a new approach.  When you are truly passionate about something, you have to keep trying, you should never settle for less than greatness and most importantly never give up. There is no failure, just lessons to learn and I learned all I can from this town.. Things lined up pretty out of the blue for my move. I got offered a pretty bad ass job in Madison and going out there a few times recently, it completely reminds me of Seattle, which is my favorite city ever..

Anyone that knows me knows of my passion for metal, and this might offend some, but I was very impressed with the metal crowd there. Very welcoming to new comers and it was great to see when the bands were playing people actually went up to the stage and watched them instead of standing in the corner, arms crossed talking shit. People seem to actually be there for the music itself and not just to be seen.. Sadly many of the recent shows I’ve been to in Milwaukee, it seems people just go to hang out with their cliques and walk around to make sure people see them there, not to actually enjoy the bands.

I’ve also heard there is a really cool independent fashion design scene there too, which is obviously very important to me.. I will be doing a lot more in the coming months..

I figured I’d start out with a roommate situation, it would be easier to find my own place when I’m already there, it’s been quite a challenge so far. Unfortunately people everywhere are judgmental in general, you can’t escape this. Because I’m  37 year old metalhead, I’m having issues with people not looking past what they don’t understand. Crazy thing is from my experience, metalheads are some of the nicest people around, but people always fear what they don’t understand. They will just write you off without getting to know you. It’s not discouraging me though, I try to be an optimist and I’m sure the right place will just fall into my lap soon enough..

My things are pretty much all packed. Can’t wait to get out there and start my new life.. More updates to come.. Horns High Metalheads and never be afraid to follow your dreams, no matter how bumpy the path becomes!

“Read me, decipher every word
Then multiply the dormant issues
Just tear me down, then build me up again
Accentuate, proliferate, recreate”

One of my favorite bands!! Make sure you check out their new album WINTER THRICE!

My Dear John Letter to Milwaukee…

Dear Milwaukee,

After not very much careful consideration, I have decided, without a heavy heart that I am leaving you..

I just wanted you to know that this is not about your physical appearance. There are many beautiful and cool things about you. This is almost strictly based on your people.. I’m not saying some of your people aren’t wonderful, I grew up with you for crying out loud, so I am entitled to my distaste based on personal experience. I will miss those people that have positively affected my life and have always had my back, but Milwaukee, I’m sad to say you have not had my back. You have not supported me through thick and thin. You have stabbed me in the back repeatedly and I foolishly gave you chance after chance to redeem yourself, only to learn that things will never change, they will only get worse..

I know they say home is where you make it, but you can only do so much.. Milwaukee, you have given me a lot, so much life experience, I have done things with you that I only dreamed possible, but you have failed to sustain my passions, you have failed to keep your promises..  I need so much more than this. As I get older I realize we are not meant to be..

I do not wish you ill will, and forgive me if I sound like an asshole, but I am excited to exclaim that it is definitely over between us, there’s no changing my mind, there is no coming back.. I hope I left you with good feeling towards me and I may pop in only to visit my family and friends from time to time, but you and I are through..

Please don’t contact me, If and when I am ready, I will give you a call..

 

 

Metal Elitists

Prepare for a rant.. This is gonna be a long one folks, be ready.. I don’t care who I offend with this post or if I lose “friends” over it.. I have heard multiple times in the recent past months about good people in good bands getting shunned by some of the local black metal so-called elitists. Some of these reasons include; they’re not black metal enough or they’re involved with FireWalk (apparently we think music is all about fashion). Some of you so-called elitists try so hard to be “crusty” and “trve” that you are actually limiting yourself and your music, keeping yourself confined to a certain “style”. Not about fashion? You have a specific wardrobe you wear, a metal t-shirt (and it can’t be any band, it has to be specific to your list of “trve kvlt” bands, SATAN forbid you look lame to any of your elitist friends), pants, boots, etc.. So this is not a style?? This is not a specific look or “fashion”? Corpse paint is not about appearance? You say your music is truly organic? How can it be when it has to be confined to a tiny little box? Walking around like you are some black metal authority. Who the fuck are you? I happen to know a lot of you listen to a huge variety of music, not just what you try to portray.. You are seriously trying to tell me there’ s no fashion in metal? Metal is totally theatrical. Maybe you should tell that to King Diamond or Rob Halford, or Behemoth or Dimmu Borgir, I could go on, but WAIT!! Those bands are all “mainstream”, they’re all successful and get to make a living doing what they love, they don’t count right? Success means selling out right? If you’re not underground you’re a poser right? Fucking ridiculous. Although this shit is not genre specific around here, it’s sadly the opinion of many different cliques in the area.. I have to address the fact that FireWalk thinks music is all about fashion.. You can’t be serious!! I make clothing inspired by music. I started doing this to make my metal t-shirts more wearable and feminine because yes, I am a woman..if my love for metal inspires me to make a corset out of a t-shirt and that offends you, that’s not my problem.. who the hell are you to tell me what’s appropriate for me to do with my inspiration? If you think I’m not a true metalhead because I like to wear makeup and feminine clothing and dress up when I leave my house, you can go fuck yourself. Metal is in my blood, Being a metalhead is a lifestyle and its not just a path that I chose to walk.. We at FireWalk have been listening metal since we were kids, I don’t give a flying rats ass what anyone else thinks I should listen to, to be considered a die hard fan. I listen to all different styles of metal as well as music outside of the metal genre. I don’t listen to music based on any criteria, I like what I like, there need not be a justification for it. There is no arguing taste. Look, this is just my opinion that I felt needed to be said because this shit is so stupid it makes my head spin..