I followed all the paths. Righteous in my heart

“I followed all the paths.  Righteous in my heart”

I don’t know how many times I’ve touched upon how much a part of my life music is.  Even if I can’t physically hear it, it’s playing in my head. I believe it to be therapeutic. Hence the title of my blog, The Dark Antidote. My music of choice being metal, which is a dark type of music no doubt.  This title references how metal helps me through my illness. How it can help push me through my bad days, when I think I have nothing left..

I have big dreams, these dreams are also many, but they all really revolve around metal. This music is so ingrained within me that no matter what the obstacle, no matter how many failures, no matter how my sickness can tend to dictate my daily life, I still forge on somehow, I still try, I will never give up. I will follow what is true to my heart til the end.

As many days as I sit and pity myself and wonder why I was hit with this nasty incurable disease, I am grateful that I have found something that can truly pull me out of my funk and light that fire under my ass to keep on my path.

I sincerely hope that other Crohn’s Disease sufferers as well as anyone plagued with a chronic illness, can find their fire, that one thing that helps them through the day. If you haven’t, you can never give up this search. We don’t deserve to waste our lives in self pity, we deserve to live out our dreams as best as we can.

I guess that’s the moral here, never surrender to your disease when there is so much life out there to be lived. Trust me, I’ve had my days of staying on the couch all day feeling sorry for myself. If you don’t open your eyes to all that life has to offer, in spite of your illness, then you may as well be dead..